Ambiguity

It's finally hit me that I'm a senior (in college, that is). And I've been having a lot of "senior moments", in which I walk around campus or, on the very rare occasion, hang out with college friends and get struck by raw, potent emotions (happiness, sadness, bittersweetness) as I realize that my university days will soon be over.

Life has taken me to unexpected places. And to some unexpected situations.

If I went back in time and told myself the story of my life thus far, I'd probably have very different reactions. I'm sure that I'd reply with something like, "COOL!" if I were talking to my kid-self. A year ago, though, I'd probably just look at myself awkwardly in disbelief.

Well, on that note, if there's anything I've learned, it's that you've got to believe in yourself.

After several, several years, I'm finally working for the Mouse as a Professional Intern at Walt Disney Parks and Resorts.

After several, several years, I'm no longer a performing musician in any sort of band whatsoever. (I think this is what hurts most about impending graduation.)

After another several years, I've finally acquired a beautiful DSLR -- a Canon Rebel XSi. (And once I finish thumbing through the manual, you can expect plenty of Flickr updates.)

And so many of my priorities, values, goals, and expectations have shifted drastically in the past few months alone. Perhaps even the past few days.

I don't know where my path is going, but I'm OK with that. I realize it's meaningless to try to control everything in life. It's impossible. And plus, it's not as fun. Let's live for the surprises. And through them, at that. Life is going to keep happening, whether we're at the wheel or in the backseat.

In the meantime, here's to spontaneous blog posts.